Next step in the plan

I actually feel really good today. I had a really busy weekend, of course it always helps to be busy so I don't have to think too intently on things. I will give the story of the weekend so that I can get to how I have made progress on the plan.

Friday night I went to see Avengers with my friend Lori and her work. We started by having dinner at Yard House - it was delicious of course. (Granted not really within my budget nor the diet plan :) ) Then we went to The Avengers! OMG - I loved this movie. Friday was a great fun night.

Saturday - I was moving a bit slow on Saturday but managed to do the grocery shopping and get it home. I changed clothes quickly, did hair and make up then met up with Lori and her sister for our Derby/Cinco day! We started the day with lunch at Hash House a Go Go - I was a little disappointed in my selection - the HUGE pork loin was way too big for the bun and honestly had little flavor. (I had them bring blue cheese dressing so I could dip the pork loin into it. I didn't eat the bun.) Then we headed over to South Point to watch the Kentucky Derby in the Sports area. We met up with Maria and Thuy and had a couple drinks and cheered on our horses. When it was over we parted with Maria and Thuy and headed to Mi Casa at the Silverton. We had drinks at the bar and met up with Potokar. (Jennifer) We had a great time laughing and chatting then ate in their restaurant ($5 for 3 tacos and 2 Coronas) and chatted and laughed some more. I was so exhausted that I was home by 9p and went straight to bed.

Sunday - I got up and lounged a lot :) I did make chili - let it stew all day in the crock pot. I made my own "roasted" beets, and then served at dinner with the chili, a roasted beet, walnut, blue cheese salad. All so good. I worked on a quilt that I started before China.

So why I feel I made a step toward the plan - I worked on the quilt, I have plans to make several meals this week. (The chili kicked it off.) I plan on continuing to work on the quilt. I want to do at least a "row" a day - which I should be able to do even more than that but at least that. I put chores on the refrigerator white board for the boys. I feel pretty good about it.

Part of the plan I am still not doing well at? Money of course... I gambled a bit and of course meals aren't cheap. But again I have set my mind to making more meals and do less gambling.

I forwarded Darren an email I got from Texas de Brazil for Mother's Day. He got my hint - we are going on Sunday :)

May 4th, made it through May Day

so here is my update. Boy has this blog changed from shopping to dieting to mental problems good grief!

As I had mentioned before I am a "plan" kind of girl.

The plan so far - I have reworked the finances. The money is tight over the next month and a half.

•  As for Josh's Football - he has a "lift-a-thon" where he can raise money for it. I am not sure if it will cover it. So I will have to see if I have to some how do some kind of side work to make it up. (Or he will :) )
• Boys' college - unfortunately I am at a time where I think we are going to have to consider loans and grants. So this is one area where I just have to accept that I can't change it.
• In the rework of the finances and reviewing my excel spreadsheet - I have ensured the "savings" part of it. And feel a little better toward how things are - but need to stick to plan.

• Wifely things - I made several meals this week - that actually made me feel better. I do love to cook.
• Cleaning... well I haven't done anything on this one. I need to just set up a day to do a good cleaning and get back to chore lists.

• Boys - well... there are moments. Especially with Josh and Erik where I feel maybe, just maybe I am "good" with them. The boys are my weakness. I love them so much that my heart breaks so easy with them. Who knew having children would be a woman's Achilles heal!? We are so strong about everything else... until they come along.

• Me... dieting, college, selfishness. still working on it. Maybe still selfishly... I am looking at a couple "me" trips. Camping in June with my girlfriends and an all inclusive with another girlfriend in October.
• We are of course planning the Disney trip before Christmas this year - just not sure how exactly yet.

Now there is always the concern that I won't stick to "the plan." I have been so great at sticking to plans before. *hear sarcasm there*

I have heard excellent advice from my dear friends and family. to be honest... and why not be honest here this is me right... I am not ready for counselling or medication (multiple people had these suggestions). Maybe I should be because when I thought over those suggestions I freaked out even more.

So there you have the first update toward returning to my working mental state.