Diet Day 6

247.6 that's right 3 pounds this week! Woot!

It was definitely an amazing feeling to step on that scale yesterday morning and see that. I was in such shock. If the weight loss could at least be this steady it wouldn't be so hard to stick to. It's when those plateaus kick in that I feel I will fail you all I will hope not though.

Food for yesterday
B - whole wheat english muffin, 1 tbls shredded cheese (I measured!), 1/2 grapefruit - that is 190 calories by the way!  (If you like salsa you could add 2 tbls for only 9 more calories)
S - 100 calorie blue berry yogurt
L - 240 cal lean cuisine (chick chow mein), apple (50), 1 small mini round (50)
S - orange (60), 1/2 FF milk (45)
D -.... well this is where I failed. I had all good intentions and my poor will power gave in. I had half a prime rib (300 ish cal), baked potato w/butter, (250), bread (going to guess at 250), bacon wrapped dates (300ish), glass of wine (114) - HOLY CRAP 1200 cal in ONE MEAL.
If you broke out your calculator that was 1935 for yesterday! The only good thing I did is - we got dessert to go and I ordered Black Forest Cake. (Cherries) I don't like cherries so i knew I wouldn't be eating it.

Today I will be going out grocery shopping again. I have a "puppy" birthday party to go to and a dinner at a restaurant again. (Meeting the mom of the girl who asked Josh to Sadies.) The plan... eat before the party and order salad at dinner and have Josh be my will power. (well scratch that I just looked at the menu online and all they have are side salads... they have a "little less" menu that I can get the Tri-Tip without gravy or muffin for 800 cal or the potpie for 710.) If I stick close to 200 for B and L, I should be ok and back on track for today.

I find it very, trying to find the right word here, annoying... tiring, frustrating - to have to spend SO much time thinking about food. But it is when I don't think about it that I get fatter. I do hope that once I do get down under 180 pounds that I won't have to put this much effort into it. My hope is that this becomes so part of my nature that I don't even notice.

Random Thoughts

• Puppies make your heart fill with love with their sweet faces and knowing that if you just give them a small scratch behind the ears they will be forever yours
• I got locked in the elevator at work yesterday for 25 minutes with 2 co-workers. Best line from someone outside the elevator "Did you push the door open button?" (My instant couldn't stop it reaction - "Oh no, we didn't think of that!")
• Saw pre-views for that "My 600 pound life" and realized I should be a bit more thankful that I haven't gotten that bad. I know I am not immobile due to my weight, nor have any current health problems (I am no longer on blood pressure medicine - over a year now). So I know I probably sound pretty pathetic needing to lose 75 - 80 pounds and whining how hard it is. Life COULD be worse.
• Me - I have a gambling problem. This also is very hard to say outloud. I have gambled too much over the years. Gotten myself into a pickle a time or two (or three.) Starting today - no more. No more gambling way all the extra money I have.

If you are out there, please leave a comment or something and let me know.

Diet Day 5

249.6!

Today was much better than yesterday. I was being really hard on myself but I believe in being realistic. I am fat.  I am trying to do something about it. Talking with people at work is helpful they are very encouraging!

Today's food
B - whole wheat english muffin, 1/4 cup egg beaters scambled with a tablespoon of grated cheese
S - non-fat yogurt
L - 260 cal Lean Cusine (salisbury steak & mac/cheese), apple, whole wheat mini
S - berries and 1/2 cup fat free milk
D - 210 cal Lean Cusine, orange, mini round and 100 cal popcorn

I did 30 mins on the treadmill last night! Felt really good too. Tonight I did about 45 mins of Dance Central with Josh - that was pretty fun.

Random Thoughts

• leaving a microwavable popcorn bag in a closed office - not so great at 6am the next day
• I love that my puppies act like I am the best thing since sliced bread
• Random about me - I once had a job selling roses. Lasted all of about 4 hours.

Wow... not a lot to say tonight.

Diet Day 4

I wish I could come up with better titles...

Scale this morning 250.4

I know weight loss is supposed to be slow and consistent, but boy was I just thinking "my body hates me" this morning. How is it putting weight on takes so little but taking it off kills you. I know I am 4 days in and I need to be more patient however that is much easier said than done. (Maybe this should be the post full of cliche's.)

I didn't go on the treadmill last night and I am about to go down and do that now even though my knees/ankles are rebelling.

Food today
B - Cream of Wheat with dried fruits and walnuts (I made sure to get no sugar added dried fruit)
S - two clemintines
L - a quarter of a left over pork chop with cranberry (it was all that was left), a small whole wheat round, salad with fat free poppy seed dressing and an apple
S - blackberries and 1/2 cup milk followed  by popcorn (which i shouldn't have but it was a single serve bag - 140 calories (i have 100 cal ones I will be taking in to work)
D - left over chicken with creamy chive sauce and brown rice, an orange and a 100 cal choc ice cream bar

I decided that today in with my "random thoughts" that I would include a "random thing people likely don't know about me". My niece had a FB note with about 25 of them, some amusing, some gross and some just notable.

Random Thoughts

• Wearing heels after months of flats kills my ankles and knees - what was I thinking!?
• Q-Tip brand cotton swabs are far superior - all because they know how to make a card board stick that doesn't bend when you use it
• Pouring 3 tablespoons of Cream of Wheat into a coffee cup of microwaved-boiling water will cause it to bubble over and cause a big mess (almost like it exploded)
• Poppy seed dressing will leave seeds in your teeth
• Random thing - I LOVE arranging pantries. I put things in order, straight lines. I get annoyed when my family can't seem to put things back where they found it. I went over to my mother in law's house once and arranged her pantry so that all the cans were neat and by type. I am not an alphabetizer. And by no means a neat freak. But pantries should be organized!

It has been a rough day. I worked from 6a - 5p. I really hate being fat. What really makes me hate it is that I am not normally a person who cares really what others think. But as I was getting on the elevator today to leave - there is a girl who works in the executive offices - she is tall and skinny and is always dressed neat and pressed. I couldn't help myself from thinking "she must think I am some kind of slob." Because really when have you ever seen a fat person look "neat and pressed"? And then of course she didn't get on the elevator with me, she conveniently stopped at someone's desk. How ridiculous to think she didn't want to be in there with me.

Well that is all I have for now. Off to the treadmill.

Diet Day 3

Scale this morning said 250.6 lbs. (no cigarettes / no alcohol)

I didn't drink near enough water yesterday or all weekend really. I could really tell today while at work since I have a cup I keep full on my desk. (Side note - Cup is from a Britney Spears concert hehe) I felt a bit hungrier yesterday then the first day.

Breakfast - I swapped the cheerios with Raisin Bran Crunch - so I didn't have the fresh fruit nor the full milk serving.
Snack - Fiber One 110 calorie bar
Lunch - I went to the Palm's to meet up with my niece. I had a cup of tortilla soup and some tortilla chips.
Snack -  was  a clemintine
Dinner I made the Pork Chop with cranberry glaze with mashed potatoes and green beans. This was a big hit.

I walked 27 minutes on the treadmill.  I would have liked to longer but after crawling on the floor for the quilt my knees were killing me! I did however mop the entire downstairs which is a lot of work. I made today and tomorrow's meals in my new lunch containers from the 99cent store :)

That leads to today.
B - whole wheat english muffin with a laughing cow light wedge, 1/2 cup black berries, 1/2 cup milk, (an additional 1/4 cup in my coffee).
S - apple
L - salad w/1 tlbs fat free blue cheese, 1/2 cup pineapple, whole wheat mini-round and the Spanish Tortilla from eatingwell.com
S - 140 calorie popcorn
D - The Mango/Basil Shrimp (from eatingwell.com), couscous and sautee'd spinich. (I didn't eat all of what was shown... so I had 100 calorie choc ice cream. (I was also supposed to have a nectorine with dinner.)

I am looking forward to tomorrow. I still need to get on the treadmill tonight.

Darren asked why I was writing on a "blog." Wondering why anyone would care about my diet. I said because they care about me! (So please all the encouragement you can send my way would REALLY help.)

Random notes for today

• Josh drove him and his brother across town to basketball. I am trying my hardest not to think about it so I don't have a melt down.
• 6AM work start time is ridiculous early
• Tumeric doesn't seem to have a very good flavor but turns everything orange (or baby poop after carrots orange... just saying.)
• I didn't go to the grocery store and buy additional ingredients today (seriously helped that I didn't have a car!)

Diet Day 2

250.8lbs - I have no idea how I lost 5 lbs in a day. that is crazy. (To keep the Bridget theme - no cigarettes, no alcohol...unless you count the small amount that went into the sauce for the chicken!)

Yesterday went great! I am SO surprised at how MUCH food 1200 calories of good stuff gets you. Eating plain cheerios at the same time as an orange is like having sweetened cheerios. The one thing that messes me up on that diet is the milk. I am not used to drinking that much milk. I may have to cut it down to just what goes in the cereal and give those calories to something else.

I managed to do 25 minutes on the treadmill last night at varying inclines and speed.

Today's menu includes:
B - Milk, fruit, cereal
S - Granola Bar
L - Salad, pita, yogurt pop
S - yogurt
D - veggie, pork chops, couscous, fruit

I took today off of work. I had also taken off last Friday. Boy did I need the days off. I am hoping these next two weeks on this diet gets me in the habit of good choices. I head to Beijing on 02/05/12 so I want to know what I should and shouldn't eat. I know I should stay away from fried foods and, looking at this diet, severely increase my intake of fruit. I am surprised at how little fruit I have been eating. It isn't like I don't like it... I love apples, berries, melon, peaches, oranges, grapefruit and pears. But somehow they weren't on my regular grocery list. After Beijing, I go to San Francisco for 3 days and then a cruise the week after that. You can see I REALLY need to make good habits.

I almost forgot - I am supposed to have lunch with Jackie today. I think I will eat before I go and maybe just sit with her or have a side salad. That should help.

Other than that - my plans for the day are to do laundry, clean my room and finish a couple quilts. I also plan on making my lunches for the rest of the week. I know not too exciting am I.

Other random notes -

• I realized I had bought Monster Jam World Finals (monster truck) tickets that falls on the same day I get back from the cruise. Problem is - I can't get a flight back in time to go. This was a "me and Erik" thing. I asked Josh, and his newly acquired license, to take him. I think they will have a good time.
• I spend WAY too much money. I am promising myself no more trips to JoAnn's until I make the quilts I already have plenty of fabric for. (I can make at least 5 right now oh and finish two that I already have in the works!) And no more trips to BAR no matter how good their food is. I spend too much in their machines and eat their way bad for you food. Since I will be gone for a month, this shouldn't be too hard to stick too ;-)
• I am having family dinner night next Sunday. Our theme is German. I will have to find out how many calories bratwursts are and adjust down the rest of the day.

PS. Gratuitous use of "so" down to only 4 corrections this time!